Do you ever find yourself always looking forward to the end result? The destination? The fruits of your labors?
I do. And when I accomplish something, I’m always looking for the next project. The next thrill. The next thing that will make my life easier and more efficient. And that’s alright with me. I figure I am always improving myself and that is a bonus to feel the benefits of what you are doing.
But something happened to me in the last couple of days. Oh don’t get me wrong, nothing earth shattering happened. But I found myself watching videos on Elvis sightings and other such fluff pieces and really enjoyed the entertainment value of them. And also, I have caught myself staring out the windows at the scenery for no particular reason.
The woman who always has something to do or say suddenly lives in the moon or staring off in space (but I’m giving away the next video this week!! The moon that is… )
I can sit here and watch the wind blow across the green leaves or just watch the birds hop across the lawn looking for food and doing what birds do. And I suddenly don’t feel the need to rush out and find a task, a project.
Don’t get me wrong, it’s all still there just waiting for me. Thing is, I don’t know if it’s just summer or simply longing for the end of the constant march to always be doing something to keep busy. It could also be because we are settling in for long payment haul on our last debt. It’s basically dump cash into it until it disappears.
Or am I coming to a point in my life where I am finally enjoying the quiet moments? The ones that have no agenda in it.
I always thought that one day after doing all I had to accomplish I could finally just sit back and relax, however for many people that sometimes means they reach a point where they no longer know what that means. They sit back and become bored and wonder. What the hell? Now I don’t pretend to think that it is all I want to do, as in sit and watch the birds because I also rolled paper logs and got them all done and put away for winter this weekend. I felt good when I had accomplished this, but I also enjoyed just sitting back and enjoying the scenery.
I’ve realized that a balance of keeping my environment efficient and clutter free is what I enjoy the best (although I am a long way off from that) I believe that a mix and match of enjoying my goals (minimalism and financial freedom) and getting there with an equal amount of relaxation and finding my inner voice and calm are what I am ultimately looking for.
So is this an evolution of my path in life? Could be. I’ll keep you posted as I always do.